Hard Blue Redemption


5am

Slap that alarm in the dark; AGAIN … now it’s on the floor. Damn. Fight your way out of the amnesia of sleep, gradually rejoining the world: damn again–realize you’re not home, this isn’t your bed, your stuff and consequently, not your day. That’s the Original Sin of air travel: you sold the day, wet-leased it, and your flying skills to the airline whose uniform is strewn in a trail leads from the door of the hotel room, across the floor and to the bed you’re finally rising from, stiff, un-caffeinated and rumpled, inside and out. You bought the ticket–you take the ride.

Darkness in a time zone east of your own is a double-whammy: it’s early, earlier still from the time change, and it’s only a charcoal gray dawn as night relents but grudgingly. And listen: rain, but not only rain, wind-whipped and cold-slung pellet rain, one of the reasons you don’t live in this “there,” one of the many “theres” far from the “here” of home, but also with too many good reasons why it isn’t home: like early season pelting freezin’ rain. Be glad you’re not waking up as First Officer, who’ll have to do the exterior preflight.

Light? There … on; sit. Good dog. And there’s another flash in the back of your mind, a cobalt pilot light ever glowing, growing: sky. Flight. The reason of the day, for the day sold to the owners of the jets you get to fly. The sky, blue as the speck in your mind, the gas blue sheen but a down payment, earnest money, underwriting the rest of the day in the blue.

Around “there” (check the nightstand before acknowledging where exactly “there” is–the phone book has more than once corrected a faulty assumption: “Oops, Cleveland, not Columbus”) the gears of life will turn differently for a hundred and fifty other early rising souls who’ll converge with you on the boxy stacked concrete airport. For them, “here,” your “there,” is home. They’re leaving home, you’re just leaving “there.” You wish the best for them and their “there,” wherever that may be.

Wrestle with aerodynamics from your first waking moment: the Venturi effect of the shower sucks the Saran Wrap-thin hotel shower curtain inward to mat against the body you’re trying to wake with trial-by-needles of always “too” hotel bath water: too hot, too cold (no in between), just be done with it.

Double-bag the in-room coffee maker: regular plus decaf equals stout yet blah but passable brew. Reassemble the uniform, throw everything back into the bag with five minutes to spare before show time. That’s both literal and figurative: the show time for the crew, the “AIV” (Ass In Van) time to leave the hotel, plus showtime for the non-crew. They will either to ignore you (my fervent hope) or engage you, which will go all kinds of wrong unless you hide behind a phalanx of flight attendants who are professional at “friendly, especially before an entire day of thoughtless and often rude passenger behavior.

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Through the airport, selective eye contact. You don’t need to hear anyone’s tale of terror and the plane allegedly falling thousands of feet and blah blah, whatever. And you definitely don’t want to hear any guy’s (why is it always men?) explanation about why they’re not a pilot, because there are too many damn good reasons why you shouldn’t be a pilot but you refused to give in. And there were too many in the Air Force pilot chase–including you, at times–who were scared shitless in some of the flying but didn’t quit, and even some who died in the trying and flying anyway. So let’s avoid that eye roll.

Silver tail: there she is. Heart skips like a first date: she’s beautiful, here for you, yours all day. Let’s get to work.

Morning light struggles with tumbly dark clouds tacking the sky like schooners on a gale. Sheets of rain rake the Tarmac and the big tail bucks the gusts, rocking the jet. A cup of coffee, a bar of something with a side order of precision: weights, power settings, instrument departure route, climb and cruise. Certify that it’s correct–get your phone out and call for more fuel: DO IT. You never regret that later.

The slow trundle aboard the ark continues under the background music of the tower frequency and an electric monotone issuing clearances; wait for your own. Verify each point. Scan the sky, eyeball to eyeball, what’s it really doing? You have the weather report, but you don’t fly on paper. Who’s winning the fight for the sky?

Cracks of indigo and slats of sunshine joust in the heaving sky as morning clears its throat making way for noon. It’s the early blue that’s best, a dark, hard blue promising so much more than an evening sky that’s mostly a grudging, sighing concession to an overpowering night. Savor the taxi out, careful, slow, watching the sky fight itself, clearing, tearing up the rumpled angry cloud banks and flinging them east like a dissipating surf boiling away against a rocky shore.

At the right moment (at last!) it’s time to climb; pour on the coals, ride the thunder, ascend, climb. Through the clouds then above, let them all fall away with the earth, somebody else’s squabble now. Salvation in flight, above the dirt and rocks and concrete and asphalt and hotel shower curtains, time away, not here but there but now away; suspended between here and there by the salvation of flight.

There’s the hard blue redemption of a sky that deepens the higher you fly, going to black straight above. Quiet crystalline cold, smooth; the big jet cruises with ease. High enough for now, Icarus, perched in the blue, halfway to there. Savor the flight while it lasts.

 

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10 Responses to “Hard Blue Redemption”

  1. Ho-boy, BT&DT! Lordy, gotta wonder how we ever survived all those “early morning” deals! You made me reminisce, I guess Paul Soderlind was correct that day he sez to me, “Randy, don’t’cha know why they give airlines their names?” “So you can tell’um apart cuz they’re all alike”

  2. Tini von Allwoerden Says:

    Well, Dr.Manno, what a lovely insight. Never knew you can be a poet. Thoroughly enjoyed this xxx Thank you for sharing.

  3. Thanks – an I’ve bought your book, too. Albeit the Kindle edition. No dead trees anymore.

  4. Leslie Storie-Pugh Says:

    Love the book now on my Kindle. Your essays are such a pleasure to read and ponder. Thank you! lsp

  5. Wonderful, Chris and thanks. While you may get a nod or the odd thank you in the afternoon, before the day’s first leg I have as much interest in engaging you and you do for engaging me. Let’s skip it, understanding both are present and function against our wills.
    Your recent book of cartoons was a wonderful if quick cruise (despite a couple of duplicates) so I’ll order the current volume this evening. The clock ticks and you will be free of the grind before you know it. I already am and trust me… it is a piece of Heaven. A peaceful road trip with no appointed schedule, has become the preferred travel mode. When flying is still necessary, I promise that I will not:
    Ask for directions to the restrooms
    Open my eyes before noon
    Engage you with even a brow, again before noon
    Sip my off-board coffee quietly and –
    -if after noon, limit our engagement to a quick nod of thanks.
    I promise. Why? Neither one of us really gives a twit or has the time to engage; we don’t much care and, on this side, I don’t have any questions – or certainly any need to impress you. IF you get me to Point B in one piece, your obligation is complete.
    Another great post and thank you. -Craig

  6. Paul L. Quandt Says:

    Thank you. Another beautiful post.

    Paul

  7. Bill Brandt Says:

    Nice post! I am believing that your reaction to “chipper, talkative and cheerful” people at oh-dark-thirty is about like mine 🙂

  8. Got my hands on a copy 🙂

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